Thursday, June 30, 2005

Tom Cruise - and my opinions of him

i noticed on my good buddy julio's blog that an argument had arisen about the person and personality of tom cruise.

in my opinion, he's a .... "not nice word".

in every single movie i have seen him in, he is a cocky jerk. also, every movie i have seen him in has to have a sex scene, or the movie just isn't complete. granted, his lastest, "war of the worlds" doesn't have sex, but thats only becuase there is no room for any in the script unless it gets really twisted from the original plot. aside from all this, he is just stupid. his parts are always unlealistic and phoney. he never needs help. he never dies. i mean, come one, couldn't he at least die in one movie and give it a happy ending? would it be that hard? please?

anyway, those are my opinions. if you don't like them...well, i can't really say that i care. and if that offends you...oopsie. don't you all love it that i am so courteous? maybe like someone else i have just been talking about.....

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Broken hearts

as high school kids, many of us have been through emotional turmoil, heartache, or even broken hearts. everybody has there own way of healing these problems. since this is my blog, you get to read what i write. so ha. eat it.

a broken heart heals best....
when we focus on something happy like...well nothing comes to mind. just try it.
when you just let yourself loose and cry your eyes out
when you sleep all day
when your friends take you out to party
when you deny that they broke your heart
when you drive real fast and turn the music up really loud
when you're not around the one who broke your heart in the first place
when you let yourself loose and break something
when you cuss out the person who hurt you
when there is lots of alcohol to be consumed
when someone else comes along for you to sleep with
the the drugs make you forget everything that ever happened....

how about this: the best way to mend a broken heart is to let go of the relationship and fall in love with Jesus Christ all over again (or for the first time if you have not already done this) through prayer, meditating on His Word, and pure, blind faith. by forgetting all that lies behind us and realizing all that He has done for us, we can't go wrong. when we realize the sacrifice He made for us by coming to earth, living a sinless life, dying on the cross while He took the punishment for all of our sins, and then coming back to life again to prove that death holds no power, nothing that happens to us seems to matter anymore. when we lay aside our desire to trust ourselves and put all of our trust in God, nothing can go wrong. He will never leave us or forsake us.

Psalm 121
i will lift up my eyes to the mountains, from where shall my help come? my help comes from the Lord who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to slip; He who keeps you will not slumber. behold, He who keeps isreal will neither slumber nor sleep. the Lord is your keeper. the Lord is your shade on your right hand: the sun will not smite you by day, nor the moon by night. the Lord will protect you from all evil; He will keep your soul. the Lord will guard your going out and your coming in from this time forth and forever.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

My favorite Mug

My favorite mug is plain and brown
it even matches my nighty-night gown (j/k)
its nice and light and not too big
it looks kinda like an overstuffed fig
it fits my hand so perfectly
it holds the drinks that give me glee
its weathered and worn and not real new
but its never had need to be fixed by glue
i'm not quite sure where i got this mug
but when i see it, i give it a hug
it makes imbibing so easy to do
it even matches some green and brown foods
it looks like the cups from which pirates drink grog
except its procelain and not made from a log
its easy to see why this mug pleases me
and with these final words i'll say "Hit me, barkeep!"

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Untitled poetry

i take my pen in hand right now and somehow try to describe
how i feel inside my heart and in my soul tonight.
she's not what i thought i wanted - in fact, she's opposite
of what i said i really liked when i wrote my mental list.
i see her every now and then, ya know, from time to time
and every time she looks at me, i keep wishing she were mine.
i'm not sure just what it was that made her catch my eye
but i hope that we can be together and never say goodbye.
it's not just her real good looks or her shiny long black hair -
there's something inside that i can't describe that makes her the girl in my prayers.
as i think about the true person she is i see why i like her so much
its the her love for the Lord and the life that she lives that makes a guy like me blush
cause i know where i stand on account of my life and i've got a whole lot to change
before a girl like her will ever look at me and see anything of gain
so i try to make change and break the bad habits that give me the life that i live
with this goal in mind: that i can look in her eyes and show that i have something to give.
but until that time happens, i'm still all alone with my prayers and the choices i make
i'm making myself into something worth wanting so that maybe i'll be with her someday.

Saturday, June 11, 2005

Another truly patriotic song

i hope and pray that none of us ever find ourselves saying that we have forgotten.

I hear people saying we don't need this war.
I say there's some things worth fighting for
What about our freedom and this piece of ground?
We didn't get to keep 'em by backing down
They say we don't realize the mess we're getting in
Before you start preaching, let me ask you this my friend

Have you forgotten how it felt that day
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away?
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside
Going through a living hell
And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

They took all the footage off my T.V.
Said it's too disturbing for you and me
It'll just breed anger that's what the experts say
If it was up to me I'd show it every day
Some say this country's just out looking for a fight
After 9/11 man I'd have to say that's right!

Have you forgotten how it felt that day
To see your homeland under fire
And her people blown away?
Have you forgotten when those towers fell?
We had neighbors still inside
Going through a living hell
And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

I've been there with the soldiers
Who've gone away to war
And you can bet they remember
Just what they're fighting for

Have you forgotten all the people killed?
Some went down like heroes in that Pennsylvania field
Have you forgotten about our Pentagon?
All the loved ones that we lost
And those left to carry on
Don't you tell me not to worry about Bin Laden
Have you forgotten?

Thursday, June 09, 2005

A different war - one of words

ok, here i go again. trying to explain away my existence.
i believe that everyone is on this earth for a purpose. what everyones purpose is, i dont know. however, i think i know mine. God has made me smart, strong, perseverant, a quick thinker (sometimes), and has given me a desire to see justice served. He has given me a desire to fight for what i believe in. he has also allowed a organization (US NAVY SEALS) to be around that i can join and accompolish my goals. He has allowed me to pass numerous tests and exams so that i can enter the navy and be a seal. coincidence? no way. also, god has allowed that there be terrorists in this world. he has allowed them to instill a reign of terror on the world. why, i don't know. but i don't question God. it is not my place.
God has given me the desire to fight for my country. nowhere in the bible is patriotism ever condemed. nowhere. therefore, patritism is a good thing. God approves of it. patriotism - love and support of ones country (websters dictionary) Jesus even told us to be patriotic and to support our government. sometimes patriotism means fighting for your country.
since the bible was brought into the equation, let me mention a few individuals. first, my favorite, was a man named jephthah (judges 11). he was an ordinary guy. but his people needed him to fight for them. even thought he didn't want to fight (as i do not want to have to take a life), he went anyway. he made a covenant with the Lord, and then he fought. he single handedly conquered 20 cities. thats impressive. and God blessed him for it. next up we have abram (gen 14), the father of isreal. while his nephew lot was living in sodom, some kings decided tgo have a war. during there war, they conquered sodom and decided to take some captives, lot and his family being among them. when abram (better known as abraham) found out, he gathered his fitghing men (about 350) and went after them. he beat the kings and rescued his nephew and his family. God blessed him for this also. the hight priest, melchizidek, publicly blessed and praise abram for his valiant actions. so don't tell me that God doesn't want his people to sit around and do nothing while wars are going on.
you are a jehovahs witness. if i understand correctly, you believe that you are one of many of Gods annointed people. you purpose in life is to spread Gods word and bring people to repentance before God. i too believe myself to be one of God's annointed - i am one of His annointed warriors. my purpose is to bring justice to the world if i can. i bleieve that God's purpose for me is to fight for freedom and agains terrorism and other injustices around the world. God has called me to do this, or else i would not have this desire. it would not be a burning pasion within my soul to do this. i will not enjoy having to take a human life b/c i know that that means that a soul is being sent to an eternal destination. i cring when i think about this. but someone has to fight. someone has to do something about terrorism. navy seals are the worlds number one anti-terrorist group. i know that i will be haunted by the memories of what i have done, but i am willing to face that so that other people may live lives of peace.
in an earlier comment, you said God would take care of the problems of the world and bring about peace to this world. i agree. but here is what i believe about his method of doing that - he will use people. God used to use angels and miracles to get things done. but he doesn't do that anymore. HE doesn't need to. He has us. let me explain. God sends the Holy SPirit to indwell us when we recieve Christ as our saviour. when we are fully surrendered to his will, he can use us more powerfully than any force in the world. that is why i am not afraid to fight and possibly give my life. God is in control, and His outcome will be the one that triumphs.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

A truly patriotic song

i love this song. i thought of it while i was writing ny previous post. enjoy.


American Girls and American Guys, we’ll always stand up and salute
We’ll always recognize when we see Old Glory Flying
There’s a lot of men dead so we can sleep in peace at night
When we lay down our head

My daddy served in the army where he lost his right eye
But he flew a flag out in our yard until the day that he died
He wanted my mother, my brother, my sister and me
To grow up and live happy in the land of the free.

Now this nation that I love has fallen under attack
A mighty sucker punch came flyin’ in from somewhere in the back
Soon as we could see clearly through our big black eye
Man, we lit up your world like the 4th of July
Hey Uncle Sam put your name at the top of his list
And the Statue of Liberty started shakin’ her fist
And the eagle will fly man, it’s gonna be hell
When you hear Mother Freedom start ringin’ her bell
And it feels like the whole wide world is raining down on you
Brought to you courtesy of the Red White and Blue

Justice will be served and the battle will rage
This big dog will fight when you rattle his cage
And you’ll be sorry that you messed with the U.S. of A.
`Cause we`ll put a boot in your ass - it`s the American way (i love this line!)
Hey Uncle Sam put your name at the top of his list
And the Statue of Liberty started shakin’ her fist (and her middle finger)
And the eagle will fly man, it’s gonna be hell
When you hear Mother Freedom start ringin’ her bell
And it feels like the whole wide world is raining down on you
Brought to you courtesy of the Red White and Blue

Why i want to be a navy seal

many people ask me why i want to be a navy seal. well, get comfortable. this will take a while.
do you remember when timmothy macvey and his buddy bombed that clinic oklahoma? i do. i sat in front of my tv as a little wondering what would drive someone to do something like that. do you remember 9/11? i do. i sat in front of my tv while i watched those planes fly into the trade towers, killing thousands of innocent people. i saw the footage of the plane that went into the pentagon. and i saw the plane that went down in pensilvania. i watched with bitter tears in my eyes, thinking of the families and friends who would miss those people. and there wasn't a ------- thing that i could do about it. do you remember when danny pearl was captured by terrorists in iraq? i do. i saw the pictures of his head after they shot him. do you remember when the other guy who got captured? i saw the pictures of him after they cut off his head. they were dancing and singing. and not a ------- thing i could do about it. i hate that feeling. i was so mad when i saw those pictures, i can't describe the rage i felt inside. the there was nothing i could do.... at the time.
now i am old enough to enlist. i can do something about it. maybe not directly with the previously mentioned occurances, but i can prevent other things from happening. by joining the seals and going through there training, i will become one of the wolrds elite soldiers. i will be the best trained commando in the world. and i will be able to fight against overwhelming odds to save people. that is why i want to be a seal.
"but you might have to kill someone" oh, like a terroist who is killing inocent civilains? who is part of a regime that is frequently uses rape, torture, and disfigurment as ways to get what they want? call me heartless, but i don't care. those people deserved to die and burn for what they have done. i don't care if they are still human beings. the things that they have done clearly show that they don't care about the sanctity of human life. if nothing is done, they will continue to do those things, and it will only get worse.
i am aware that i will have to get my butt trained off, go through many hardships, and that i will have to kill people. i will gladly trade my easy civilian life for so that others can have peace. somone has to do something about terrorism. i really like this saying: life, liberty, and the pursuit of those who treaten it.
if i die while i am a seal, so be it. my life is not so great that i will miss anything. i know where i will go, and if God calls me home, i will be in a better place. until then, its time to sent some bad guys to "the other place" (hell). thats were they belong.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

The 'doors' of our lives

ok, so you all know that i want to be a navy seal when i get out of high school. what you don't know is that i used to have asthma as a little kid. ok, some of you knew that. anyway, to get into the navy, i have to get cleared by a doctor saying that i no longer struggle with asthma and that it won't be a problem for me. unfortunatley, my dad was diagnosed with asthma at age 44, and my older brother has always had it. so i went ot my doctor and and talked to him about it. he said that he can tell the navy that i am not struggling with it now or for the past few years, but he can't be certain that i will never struggle with it again. he told me i should take a pft (pulmonary function test) and he would look at my results. well, i took the test, but i don't know how i did. if i can get cleared, then i can join the navy and go for the seal teams. if i don't get cleared, i can't. and i have absolutely no idea what i will do if that happens. i have wanted to be a seal since junior high, and now i am a senior in high school. the uncertainty sucks, but i guess God know what he wants for me, so that makes it easier. if i get cleared, then i guess he is opening the door for the seals. if don't then i guess he doesn't want me there. i just really hope he does want me there. really really really hope. and now i just wait and see what happens. blehhh.

Friday, June 03, 2005


i like summer vacation. i can wear whatever i want, i don't have to shave or cut my hair (goin shaggy all the way, baby!), i can get up later, and i can work and earn some money. plus, the pools are open now and i can go swimming. i like swimming. there is also so much more time to hang out and goof off. i don't have to put up with special (stupid) people from school anymore. it's like a breath of fresh air mixed with a pina colada. it totally rocks. i wish summer break lasted all year long.

Warning notice

This post is for the very not nice person who took all of my kick butt stickers and pictures from my locker. i am no longer grounded from life or my car and i have re-obtained my keys. when i find you out, i will exact swift retribution on your pathetic little hindparts. however, if you peacably surrender yourself to me and return the pics/stickers (and sell your soul to me for ... a period of 3 weeks) i will drop all grudges and ill will toward you. you have been warned.