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i take my pen in hand right now and somehow try to describe
how i feel inside my heart and in my soul tonight.
she's not what i thought i wanted - in fact, she's opposite
of what i said i really liked when i wrote my mental list.
i see her every now and then, ya know, from time to time
and every time she looks at me, i keep wishing she were mine.
i'm not sure just what it was that made her catch my eye
but i hope that we can be together and never say goodbye.
it's not just her real good looks or her shiny long black hair -
there's something inside that i can't describe that makes her the girl in my prayers.
as i think about the true person she is i see why i like her so much
its the her love for the Lord and the life that she lives that makes a guy like me blush
cause i know where i stand on account of my life and i've got a whole lot to change
before a girl like her will ever look at me and see anything of gain
so i try to make change and break the bad habits that give me the life that i live
with this goal in mind: that i can look in her eyes and show that i have something to give.
but until that time happens, i'm still all alone with my prayers and the choices i make
i'm making myself into something worth wanting so that maybe i'll be with her someday.