Saturday, October 29, 2005



talk about an emtional high.....

Friday, October 28, 2005

something to find comfort in..

How deep the Father's love for us, how vast beyond all measure
That he should give his only son, to make a wretch his treasure
How great the pain of searing loss, the Father turned his face
As wounds which mar the chosen one, bring many sons to glory

Behold the man upon a cross, my sin upon his shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that held him there until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life; I know that it is finished

I will not boast in anything: no gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ; his death and resurrection
Why should I gain from his reward? I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart: his wounds have paid my ransom

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

since i last posted....

lets see...
sat - had a youth group dinner at my house. it was fun. jenni fell of the "bull" and cut her toe. my neighbors dressed up like cowboys (one of them dressed up like a freak) and scarred the hoey out of some of the people here. kody came.
sun - church. went to butdogs house and hung out, talked, goofed off, ate pizza, and watched most of "u.s. marshals" then we came to my house and finished it.
mon - school, soccer practice. came home and worked. then had lil payne and butdog over and we watched happy gilmore and shot each other with airsoft guns and ate popcorn.
tues - school. left early to go and play in the state soccer semi-finals. we kicked butt and won. then we got on the bus and beat the crap out of each other on the way back. it was fun.
today - made pizza. school. they're gonna try and change my schedule so that i have to take speech instead of a study hall and pe, but i'm not gonna let em. went to church and helped with the little kids. "i gutta go puddy" fine. 5 minute later, "i gutta go puddy again." you just went 5 minute ago. "i gutta go again." no. wait. then i came home and typed this while listening to "the llama song."

Friday, October 21, 2005

wilderness - o. c. supertones

for some reason, i really love this song. it seems to sum up how i feel all in one, i guess. (the music is really cool, too) it is comforting for me to hear this and read it, especially the las to parts of it. let me know what you think.

The rain falls on the righteous and the wicked
And mine is not to reason why this is
In this I rest in this I find my refuge
That my thoughts and ways are not His
I spent my life on looking up the answers
It's rare that I can't find a reason why
But reasons fail and children without mothers
His plan is more than I can know

Have you ever held in doubt
What this life is all about
Have you questioned all these things that seem
important to us
Do you really wanna know
Or are you a little scared
You're afraid that God is not exactly what you'd have
Him be
What should I hold to and what should I do
How do I know if anything's true
I'm somewhere in-between Canaan and Egypt
A place called the wilderness

I'm not one who always trusts their feelings
I don't believe in what you'd call blind faith
But faith that you can do all that you promised
And you said it all works for good
It's safe to say I don't see the big picture
I can't see the forest for the trees
And if five hundred lives
Were mine to get to know
You all could be spent on just this

God do you really understand what it's like to be a man
Have You ever felt the weight of loving all the
things you Hate
Have You struggled have You worried
How can You sympathize

I have spoken much too soon put my hand over
my mouth
I can't contend with You
Your ways are so much higher
And we pass through the fire that Christ endured
before us
When You were in the wilderness

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

little boys

ok. this is a completely not normal post for me, but i don't care. i work with a bunch of 3-4 yr olds on wed nights. sometimes they are really fun, and sometimes i think of new ways to torture the little brats. they weren't that bad tonight, and i actually do enjoy working with them. but tonight i was completely flabergasted by the little guys. i ended up talkin about 8 diff groups of guys to go potty, and some of the guys went 2-3 times. mind you, this is only a 1 1/2 hour time span. i mean, seriously. either the parents are really stupid and are making htem drink way too mcuh, or these guys need to learn how to hold it or something. it was insane. every 5 minutes, "misser doe, i dotta do poddy" um, you just went. "i dotta do agian." or i would get back to the room and one would see another coming in. "i dotta do poddy too" geez. ok, i now i had some problems as a kid, but i at least didn't have to go tinkle every 5 minutes. that i one think i am not lookin forward to about kids, but ive still got a few years before i have to worry about that one. (i think so, anyway)

Monday, October 17, 2005

hmmm, i need some ideas.....

i feel the need to write some more poetry, but i am not having much inspiration. so i ask you, my faithful audience what would you like me to write poetry about?

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

vacation....yay - no school!

well, i leave for the far of country of minnesota in about 7 hours. its a 14 your drive. uhg. that part is gonna suck. but i got some books to read and some cds and i might work on learning portugese (yeah right) on the trip. i''l have to remember to bring the charger for my pda so i cna play games on it the whole way there. it sounds like we'll have a fun trip ("we" being my parents and me). but the trip will be so long and boring. maybe i'll just sleep through the whole thing. that would be cool. i doubt it would happen.
we beat calumet last night 7-0. it was a pretty good game. they played really dirty, but coach wouldn't even let us play a little dirty. that just takes all the fun out of a game like that. they were making stupid fouls and stuff like that - they were even spitting on us. their team got about 7 yellow cards, 1 red card, and the ref stopped the game and talked to their coach, telling him to shut up (in so many words). it was pretty pathetic. and after the game, the guy who had been doing the majority of the crappy stuff (spitting, fouling, running his mouth) walked by us all and said "no hard feelings". what the heck was that all about? whatever.
since i'll be in minnesota for a few days, i prob won't be able to check my blog or update it for a while. that makes me sad. so does the fact that my ginger beer is all gone. ginger beer is good stuff, don't ya know. it puts hair on your chest. i gotta find some more of this stuff. its so totally mondo.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

home is where the heart is...and the best food and bed

i have returned from my wanderings afar. from a boring afar away place. yay. i got to hang out with my brother for a while, and then micah was in town so he came over with a bunch of the croud we hung with and we had fun. then i went to a hispanic church in town. it was pretty cool. i understood about 50% of what was said, but i was still able to get the general concepts. he talked about the power of satan to lead us astray and take our focus off of God. it was a good sermon. it game me some stuff to think about, too. that hasn't happened much recently. maybe i'll go back and hang with miguel or sumthin. anyway, i think pac sun has replaced hottopic as the coolest clothing store on my list. they had some of the funniest tshirts i have seen in a long time. and kb toys - well, the thrill never leaves you when you go to a place like that. a bunch of guys got lightsabers and we had fun beatin each other with them. my bro broke his airsoft gun, so he is now defenceless against me. hopefully, i'll be able to order a new gun this week some time. anyway, we have a soccer game on tues @ 4:00. not really excited, but its the last home game for the year and its senior night or sumthin weird like that. not sure if i wanna hang around for the "festivities" afterwards. well, i gotta go find my gijoes. i'm using them for a visual aid for spanish class tomorrow. cya.

Monday, October 03, 2005


ok, something happened that kinda made me a bit upset, but the more i thought about it, the upsetness(yes i just made up a word) turned to sadness. i was talkin with some classmates about this guy i know named kody. i said that he should come to fiath with all of us, and someone else asked the question "who are you talking about?" we told her (even though she had been evesdroping)and she immediatly said "oh he wouldn't make it here." i said "what do you mean" she said "well, i know him and he would just hate it here and would get in trouble and wouldn't be good here." realizing that i would get mad if i said anything, i simply went back to work and thought about what to say. a few minutes later, i asked her how she knew him. her answer (and this is where i almost lost it completely) was "i went ot drivers ed with him." oh, so that means you really know what he is like and everything about him and how he acts. WRONG! i understand that he might not have seemed like a perfect christian, but that was like 2-3 years ago. so what if you "knew" him then? (which you didn't)i was somewhat amazed that this girl seemed to have no faith in the kid that he would turn his life around. when i told her that he has changed quite a bit, she made some snide remark along the lines of "well, i've seen him since then and he hasn't changed." at this point, i could've done many things, but i simply turned away and kept my comments to myself. i know people can get set in ther ways, but to have that apparent lack of fiath in God's power to change an individual was appalling. He's changed me quite a bit, and i know other people that God has changed. it was sad to see the way she responded to that situation. i wish i would've known what to say....

Saturday, October 01, 2005

something to think about

"The LORD gives, and the LORD takes away; blessed be the name of the LORD."

we won our game last night (kicked their butt, we did) and we lost tonight (got our butt kicked, we did). we played awesome last night, and played..well, not so good tonight. i don't understand it, but somehow its for the best. and my legs hurt. and will prob hurt tomorrow. hope i can stay awake in church. maybe i'll drink a mt dew to help wake me up.

one other thing - my parents witnessed a car accident on the way to the game. a guy hit a deer and slid off the road. then his car started rolling. i think they said it rolled 4-5 times, and then it flipped end over end. the guy is alive, but he lost a lot of blood and is probly still in the hospital and will be there for a least a couple of days. his car was completely smashed up. they said it was just like watching a movie - pieces were flying of his car as he was rolling and flipping. keep this guy in your prayers as he no longer has a car and also will be in a good deal of pain for a few weeks. also pray that throught this situation someone would be able to witness to him. i'm sure that he's pretty freaked out right now and would be willing to listen to someone if they had the oppurtunity.