Where is my Eden?

i started wrtiting this poem a while back when i was bored and going through some trials and soul searching. thankfully, i came out on the right side of things and was able to finish it the way i did.

i look around at this dreary place, i try to find one inviting trace
where i can be who i really am, to be my slef and not be damned.
to live so free as a solitary priest with out care for man or beast
i envison a world where mandate holds none,
and each lone being regrets not what the've done.
is there life beyond this dim realm? is there reason to wish others well
why even care? why try to go on?
why look to the future for a better beyond?
i wnat to give up, to just lay down and die,
to throw in my towel and let the world pass me by
but then i look up and see my savior hanging there
he looks down at me with compasion and care.
then i awake from a daze as if i had dreamed
and it comes to me as if it was screamed.
i have what i need - my life is complete.
my Savior and Lord gave it all for me.
He sacrificed all for a wretch such as i
he came to earth and was willing to die.
i know not his struggle or agony or pain,
but for me He has died someday i would gain
then i hang my head with tears in my eyes,
i can't stop myself and i start to cry.
but a feel and hand lifting up my chin
and i look up at Jesus and stare back at Him.
"It is over, My son, your sins are forgiven.
come live with Me forever in heaven.
i can't take you yet. you'll just have to wait
because there's still folks on earth that need to be saved.
go be my disciple and tell all that mourn
that with Jesus ther is peace forevermore."
so i finally see that my life ain't that bad.
in fact, i've got lots for which to be glad.
so i pick my self up and start making things right
so that other might live and have eternal life.